i'm beginning to become the person i despised.

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you disappoint me. i cannot believe what you did / are doing. why are you trying to get them to question me? so that you guys can talk and laught about it at my expense? i told you i needed my space, that they will know when the time is right. yet it's as if you're purposely ruining things for me.

so much for friendship and learning to trust.

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have you ever prayed, God give me a clear answer, a yes/no .. and then receiving an answer, and then thinking, nah, this can't be the answer .. and you repeat the prayer again, expecting God to change the answer?

sometimes i think i'm too stubborn. and i don't want to accept the answer.

or maybe i don't think i'm capable enough to go through with what the answer tells me.

lack of trust. lack of faith.

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funny how a private person like me, has a blog that the whole world can read.

thank you, for being there. for caring. for loving. for understanding. for looking out for me. for believing. for trusting.
for just being timothy john. the one i can count on.
**now, can you please stop being childish and talk to me already?? :( **

.. the one who exceeds your list?

.. the one who's willing to change for you?

.. the one you're willing to change for?

or

.. the one you're willing to accept his/her idiosyncrasies and not change him/her?

.. i shall post my msn display pics that i've used recently,
with the status message that went with it.

 



 
Standing L-R : Jason, Jason, Kelvin, Kalvin
Sitting L-R (R-L also can) : Marianne, Marianne

the belittling of others, making others feel uncomfortable, trying to mess with our minds.

i will not let them get to me.